Wednesday, March 6, 2024

Why Do You Stay?

 Why do you stay when the door doesn’t have a lock? 


Why do you stay when your kids and grandkids are getting indoctrinated to be exclusive and not being taught the gospel of good news? 


Why do you stay when the doctrine doesn’t match what Jesus said? 


Why do you stay when criminals and pedophiles are protected? 


Why do you stay when workers abuse each other? 


Why do you stay when workers and form are worshipped instead of Jesus?


Why do you stay when grace is not taught?


Why do you stay when workers give permission for who can partake of the emblems and take part in testimonies - contrary to what Jesus said? 


Why do you stay when huge amounts of money is not accounted for?


Why do you stay when workers come between your intimate relationship with Jesus?


Why do you stay when the lies and deception are known? 


Why do you stay when the workers and the friends live double lives, hide and lie about reality? 


Why do you stay when workers are kicked to the ditch without any help or support?


Why do you stay when your loved ones are maligned, mocked, denigrated and shunned if they leave?


Why do you stay when children are hurt and the ones who hurt them are allowed unconditional trust and access? 


Why do you stay when the victim survivor is called mental, a liar and a trouble maker? 


Why do you stay when your worth and value and identity comes from God alone? 


Why do you stay when policies will never work?


Why do you stay when faith in Jesus as the way, the truth and the life is traded for a form of fellowship that claims it is the way and the truth? 


Why do you stay when believing in the 2x2 ministry and meeting in the home takes precedence over believing that Jesus is our Creator, God and Savior? 


Why do you stay when you are embarrassed to invite people to Gospel Meetings? 


Why do you stay when you feel sick at heart, discouraged, confused, sick to your stomach, depressed and can’t tell anyone? 


Why do you stay when you have a hymn book that doesn’t have Christmas Carols that tell the real gospel story? 


Why do you stay when you have a hymn book that doesn’t give credit to the authors and composers from early main stream Christianity? 


Why do you stay when this hymnbook radically purged hymns that spoke of Jesus’ blood, grace, and faith over works? 


Why do you stay when this hymnbook is minus the old and great, tried and true hymns like Holy, Holy, Holy, In Christ Alone, Great is Thy Faithfulness and the all time greatest hymn ever - Amazing Grace which are all in Creative Commons? 


Why do you stay when meeting up with other Christians is frowned upon? 


Why do you stay when reading other traditional great Christian literature, study helps, other translations to help one understand scripture is forbidden? 


Why do you stay when you can’t answer any questions that a Christian friend asks you about your fellowship other than the ministry in the home and the homeless ministry? 


Why do you stay when you don’t pray with and for people you fellowship with? 


Why do you stay when no spiritual conversations or discussions can be had? 


Why do you stay when your meeting life and your school/career/neighbor/citizen life doesn’t match with what you say and how you act around the friends/meeting? 


Why do you stay when your vocabulary is one way around the friends and another around outsiders - living split? 


Why do you stay when you view anyone outside this exclusive fellowship as lost and worldly? 


Why do you stay when mainstream pastors and teachers are considered wolf in sheep’s clothing and the ministers of the fellowship have actually proven they are such? 


Why do you stay when losing your place, your ‘priviledge’, your meeting and your reputation is more important than following Jesus? 


Why do you stay when spiritual and emotional abuse happens to someone and you turn away so it doesn’t happen to you and to protect the fellowship by silence? 


Why do you stay when you know things you don’t want to know and don’t tell anyone? 


Why do you stay when you finally understand that you can’t do anything to make God love you more or less? 


Why do you stay when you know someone who holds the keys to the bank that holds trust funds they control and benefit from for supposedly poor workers? 


Why do you stay when you want to leave? 


Why do you stay when you are starving for more? 


Why do you stay when you see the freedom of those who’ve left and how it is obvious ‘it is well with their soul”? 


Why do you stay when going to meeting is merely going through the motions?


Why do you stay when a perpetrator who harmed your son or daughter or some child you know is not taken to court? 


Why do you stay when you want more than is offered in cliches, tired and worn out verbiage, misapplied scripture and exclusive lingo? 


Why do you stay when you want to hear words of life?


Why do you stay when your worth and value comes from God and is the only thing that matters? 


Why do you stay when reality is your best friend? 


Why do you stay when the system which is built upon lies and deception is the actual wolf? 


Why do you stay when the belief system that you have always believed in isn’t what you thought it was and never was? 


Why do you stay when there is a flood coming and an ark is available? 


Why do you stay in a fellowship that is being investigated by the FBI for criminal activity and 2 documentaries are in the works? 


Why do you stay when the Lord is going to rapture the church soon and you might be left behind if you do not trust and believe in Jesus for your salvation instead of a belief system? 


Why do you stay when works instead of faith are preached? 


Why do you stay when you are free to open the door and walk away to freedom in Christ and the peace and joy that comes with it? 


Why do you stay when there are over 700 known perpetrators of child sexual abuse to date? 


How can you stay and support this fellowship when you know what you know? 


“Being a human being means both more and less than being an image bearer of a holy God. The real issue at the core is personhood. Failing to discern rightly who we are renders us unable to accurately discern anything we touch, feel, think or dream. Failing to discern rightly who we are renders us unable to properly know who God is. We are truly lost in a darkness of our own making.”


The rapture is happening. Craig and I want to be in heaven with you. We love you. The only way that happens is if you know and believe who Jesus is and trust in what he did on the cross to save you, forgive you and give you eternal life. Some day every tongue will confess and every knee will bow that Jesus is LORD. We stand before God someday as an individual by ourselves facing our Creator and Savior. No group or belief system is standing with us. 




**** Craig and I grew up in a belief system and culture that was 

hidden in plain sight. It had beginnings from 1887 in the UK. The history was hidden from us and it was supposed to be from the beginning in bible times. The tenets that needed followed were: Meetings in homes, ministers of the same sex who went out two by two and lived without a home. They are supposedly celibate, but aren't. They are single. Meetings in homes and itinerate 'workers' take the place of Jesus being the Way, the Truth and Life. Legalism and works take the place of grace. 


Aberrant behavior abounds within this system based on deception and a big lie. The ratio of Child Sexual Abuse within this system is off the charts. The perpetrators are protected but the victims are ostracized and emotionally abused for telling the truth. 


The FBI and IRS are now involved.  Money is laundered. The system works like a cartel or the mafia. Documentaries are being made. A totalitarian script is followed. Money and power and corruption is fostered by a congregation that willingly supports and endorses the lies, the abuse and the corruption. 


If anyone wants to know more, Advocates For The Truth, Telling the Truth, WINGS, EX2x2info, Concerned and Connected Friends and Preserving the Truth are all places to get information. Old books from the 80's and 90's are hard to find but they include: The Secret Sect, Reflections, Etc. Facebook has 2 active groups. Look up 2x2, Coonyites, The Truth, The Friends and Workers, etc, on the internet and find a treasure trove of info and videos. 


Most of all pray for the people. They aren't all evil. They are brainwashed and deceived and trapped - much like any other cult members - the people aren't evil but the belief system is. The system is the wolf. 


You will recognize them by long hair, no jewelry or make-up, long dresses usually denim skirts and they stay to themselves as far as sports, movies, music, etc. They do not have answers when questioned by a Christian. They do not blend with mainstream Christianity. 


The hymnbook does not give credit to music written by outsiders and used without permission or attribution. 


The most famous hymns of our time are not in the hymnbook. Christmas and Easter are not celebrated but Halloween is. Christmas Carols are not sung or enjoyed. The Gospel according to the 2x2's is not Good News. It is a belief system based on lies. 

Travelers



 

Travelers are curious.

Travelers are able to be inconvenienced.

Travelers are comfortable being uncomfortable.

Travelers know how to easily and quickly change plans.

Travelers have patience to let the plot catch up.

Travelers don’t mind being disturbed.

Travelers figure out how to be disappointed and live through it.

Travelers seek out free things with a view.

Travelers would rather have the experience rather than the thing.

Travelers travel light and limber.

Travelers know how to delay gratification.

Travelers don’t expect or feel entitled.

Travelers can live rough and simple.

Travelers see what they see, not what they came to see. (Chesterton)

Travelers make do and are flexible. 

Travelers access the peripheral experiences outside the lens.

Travelers are delighted with the unexpected. 

Travelers ask for help.

Travelers want to help.

Travelers use all their senses.

Travelers eat what the locals eat.

Travelers love real food made simple and satisfying.

Travelers make friends easily.

Travelers add value wherever they are. 

Travelers give thanks.

Travelers say no to a lot of things so they can say yes to a few things.

Travelers don’t mind feeling awkward walking through a new door.

Travelers rest when fatigued.

Travelers aren’t embarrassed to ask for directions. 

Travelers don’t get restless when waiting.

Travelers know that being worn and weary means they need to rest.

Travelers know that hospitality is a two way street - giving and receiving.

Travelers leave only footprints and take only memories. 

Travelers welcome others into their lives with gratitude.

Travelers yearn for the next adventure.

Travelers keep itineraries loose. 

Travelers find pleasure where they find themselves. 

Teach your children to be travelers……


Saturday, December 12, 2020

Do It For Jamie

 For Jamie 



Somewhere in Sweden 

Richard is planting nut trees

 he grew from seed. 

He won’t see the harvest 

during his lifetime. 


Gabe is planting the good 

life in soil he built up into

a microworld of biodiversity

from North Dakota dirt

dead from years of abuse.

He turned his farm around. 


I recently saw a woman 

sitting in her garden

 listening to 

Andrea Bocelli’s 

Si album - 

humming yes, 

along with the bees

 and the flowers 

and the blue, blue sky.  


I know a young woman

 who just had a sweet baby man child - 

this morning - after much travail.

 Jamie is his name.


Jamie was born into a world 

where people are being regenerative, 

instead of merely sustainable. 

They are providing life,

 planting fruit, 

and creating beauty

 for the next generation.

 For him. 


Beneficials:

 Attract them, invite them, 

feed them, protect them. 

They pollinate the goodness 

surrounding us. 


Be one yourself. Be a beneficial pollinator. 

Life will end when they are gone. 

Do it for Jamie. 

Wednesday, December 19, 2018

More Belovedness

His main point was
N O T     T O 
evangelize
proselytize
save
convert
connive
trick
sell anything 

- nor was he the perfect
pattern preacher for us 
to try to imitate

He did not do what he 
did so everyone would
think he was wonderful

He thinks we are wonderful -
how flipped is that? 

a n d    b e s t    o f     a l l 

before becoming
this adult who 
connected 
engaged
loved
helped
healed
forgave 
celebrated 
imbibed
met with
ate with 
protected
invited
and taught
the hordes of common people
and denounced and exposed
the high and mighty 
religious ones

he was the first Christmas Morning ~  

.... "For unto us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. The Messiah. Our Creator. 

He did what he did and lived how he lived so first and foremost we would know and experience being beloved. That is the all of it. He wants us with him forever.  

And Mary, did you know the one you delivered would someday deliver you? And us? 


Emmanuel. God with us. 
******************************

(Mary Did You Know, Emmanuel, and Oh Holy Night are my favorite Christmas Carols. After all these years I still ponder the lyrics and never tire of them. They are still wonder producing.) 

Tuesday, September 25, 2018

How Does a Pilgrim Progress?

She slogs
through
not around

She rises
up
from falling

She brushes
off
the mud

She binds
up
her wounds

She asks
for
help and healing

She wants
to
notice

She practices
being
thankful

She sees
much
beauty

She wipes
her
tears away

She progresses
because of
grit.

Friday, September 14, 2018

Elsa



She wears 
a pensive face
under a turban
holding 
all her thoughts
tight
inside her brain
so it won't explode
exuberant ideas
that shout 
for release 



Thursday, September 13, 2018

Wasted By Pornography

Is it worth it? You spill your strength
 - it pulses into an open palm
lined with tissue absorbing
your milky manhood
aroused by that one dimensional
girl who always smiles

(because to get paid
or get the next hit to numb
the hopeless shame she can't
escape from -
she has to paste on
a smile for the money shot -
no matter what painful degradations
or horrific atrocities
she is experiencing as you watch
with pleasure.)

Young man,
after your quick and easy
release -

do you wonder if you are a coward
to waste it, your magnificent manhood?
Your lack of ambition for wooing
and winning one of those
complicated, intricate,
fascinating girls

is her great loss

and the world's.



Monday, November 6, 2017

Prayer For Moving To A New Town

At fifty seven years old
I look back at all the botched
relationships I'm partially responsible
for, and weep.

It makes me treasure the ones
who've stood by all the high maintenance
and high passions with durable
endurance.

These are strange years -
such unfamiliar social
cultures we're living through.

I miss the old family gatherings when
everyone held an instrument
or used their voice to sing or
storytell.

The laughter from the retold
and the tears from sad lyrics handed down
gave me security as I fell asleep
wrapped up in soft
murmurs.

I miss crowded homes with
tables heavy with
sustenance and comfort.

I miss simple. I miss old fashioned fun.

I'm lonely, but not bored,
nor uncomfortable being alone.
They say creative ones are
never bored - but where
is the companionship
that the internet can't
supply? Skin to touch and
eyes to look into? Contagious
smiles to reflect? Where do I find
the other lonely ones?

Where do I find friendship
if I am tired of sitting in
a pew looking at the back
of people's heads - and bars
and clubs don't excite me ?

New town, please
utilize what I have to offer -
find me a few good friends
who might enjoy someone
who is still learning how to
be a friend?

New town, keep me from winter
kill. I beg you, please allow spring
to resurrect me tender and green.
Let me take root in a wild,
riotous border - bursting with color
and welcoming scent.



Saturday, November 4, 2017

Rain

Every fall 
I try to change
my mind about
rain - talking myself 
out of dread 
and reframing it 
as being a desirable thing
to celebrate and relish. 
An annual epiphany 
I must revisit often -
since I live in the Pacific
Northwest close to a Rain 
Forest on an island 
where rain 
happens. 
Water of any kind 
makes me happy. 
Rain is water. 
This equation needs
embossed on my brain. 
I raise my arms to welcome
rain today, tomorrow
and the day after - 
like the mighty cedar
does. 

Friday, November 3, 2017

Pertaining To Coming Home and Moisture

All things estival have come to a swift
end.

Leaves falling crisp in the Rockies
follow me back home to soggy - where
blackbirds hunch shoulder to shoulder
drip, drip on a dripping high wire.

A statuesque blue heron
stands knee deep and still in high tide
blending into slate blue skies.

The inside of my dry, cracked nose welcomes
the drizzle.

I have front row parking
on the ferry. My thirsty skin,
eyes and heart want the windshield
barrier gone - it keeps me from the salt spray.
The freezing wind makes me thankful for it.


Logs float on the chop. I hope to
spot a seal's watchful eyes.

Ahhh ...
the absolute relief of being at one
again with salt water.



**(My friend Susan read this and asked if I'd seen Blue Mind In the Desert Ted Talk by Wallace J. Nichols.) I hadn't. Yet. It is fantastic. I just ordered his book and will find a blue marble to remind me....